It's all my LiveJournal posts. Look for "thinking hey" in green on the left. It sort of reads "thinking hey, she's positive". :D I love this thing. I screwed up the xD but oh well.
And it occurred to me that not once have I mentioned Corey Feldman on my LiveJournal! xD So here it is:
Corey Feldman has a dog called Jake. Haha Jake. Haha.
Apparantly Krista broke up with Jake (boy not dog) because she thought I was jealous. *eyeroll*
HE IS PLAYING MIND GAMES. Nobody else can see it but I'm so sure it's true. That wily git.
Oh, I've made friends with Beth'n'that now. It's turned out that all this "she hates me and thinks I'm evil and weird pshhhh" thing came from Blanka, who was the one who told me all this in the first place.
DAMN I gotta get dressed. (: Byeee.
Oh! By the way. I LOVE cappuccino.
- Mood:
energetic - Music:Party In A Forest (Where's Laura?) - The Wombats
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Okay, last week he was pretty much wrestling with me and being really OMG I LOVE YOU. Now he's fawning over my friend in a very obvious way right in front of me.
Either he's even more stupid and insecure than I thought he was or he's trying to play mind games.
Wtf.
He can't even spell her name! D<
AND I DON'T EVEN LIKE HIM
BUT WHAT HAVE THEY GOT THAT I HAVEN'T?!
SHE ISN'T EVEN PRETTY FFS.
ARGH I HATE BEING A TEENAGER
"she might go out with me 'cause she's desperate"
"no D: that's not what I meant"
HAHA. Yes it is. -.- She is.
*sigh* Sometimes I just hate everyone. *hugs moodtheme*
- Mood:
bitchy - Music:I'm Always Right - Pigeon Detectives
Hee, I just saw The Incredible Hulk. It was alright. Visually stunning, everything else was a bit meh. Except Tim Roth. xD He was amazing. But his character (EMIL BLONSKY. BEST NAME EVER xD) shot a dog with a tranquiliser and made me gasp really loudly and annoy everyone around us. >>
**SPOILERS FOR LORD OF THE FLIES AND THE NEW HULK FIIIILM! ((BUT SERIOUSLY. LORD OF THE FLIES))**
Two of my favourite characters died today (*points to suitable icon*). One in Lord Of The Flies (Simon, poor Simon, he had the best scene in the entire book and was the most rational and nicest out of all of them! D=) and the other in The Incredible Hulk (but that's what I get for falling in love with evil bastards xD Then again, The Abomination was pretty kickass, and didn't really deserve to be somehow killed by the obviously weaker Hulk standing on his ribs).
**SPOILERS OVER, NOW FOR SOMETHING ENTIRELY DIFFERENT, BLAH BLAH BLAHHH...**
I was thinking about when I go to college, and getting people to call me something different. I just don't really like the name Laura that much; I don't really associate with it. I want a bit of an odd name. Originally I was thinking of just introducing myself as Lur, but I was thinking of doing the same sort of thing my mum did and adopting my middle name. It's Josephine (like Napoleon Bonaparte's wife!), after my granny - I always loved her and the name, and I was thinking of shortening it to Jo. It's a bit gender ambigious, which I quite like.
On the other hand, I wanted something with lot of meaning in it. Obviously Jose/Jo has a lot of personal meaning to me, but I don't really feel like it's "it" somehow. Maybe I'm totally overthinking this whole thing, but it would be like a fun way to reinvent myself and define myself. I'm mad on names and have to make sure I find the perfect names for characters and such. When people say "Laura" to me, I'm usually responding to a noise, not a name. ...
Hm. Any thoughts on the matter? (:
- Mood:
thoughtful - Music:Kids In America - Kim Wilde
- Mood:
bored - Music:People Are Strange - Echo & The Bunnymen (LOST BOYS =D)
Orange is not only the colour I've painted my room, but also my favourite colour, fruit juice, colour of Smartie and Reservoir Dog.
I'm suspicious.
Also, I'm totally obsessed with the Stand By Me Soundtrack right now. x3
- Mood:
relaxed - Music:Come Go With Me - Del Vikings
I also just thought of loads of stuff to tell you. First of all, I never have to do gymnastics. Ever. Again. FRICKING AMAZING! This is pretty old news, but it still makes me grin like crazy. Also, I got a letter the other day from SYA about volunteering - I'll hopefully be helping raise awareness about it soon. It seems a bit weird that my first mission is that of recruiting, but whatever.
I think I might start writing again.
- Location:bedroom
- Mood:
content - Music:HRSA - Blue October
1. Mature =/= Settled.
I AM MATURE. OKAY? MATURE MATURE MATURE! *sticks tongue out* I know I'm mature for my age, I've always been more mature than my peers, and it's given me a bit of a superiority complex if I'm honest, but it DOESN'T MEAN I AM SETTLED. Because you're only mature for your age. I'm sure a 40-year-old would consider me mature for my age, but I'm not quite on the same level of maturity as somebody that age. I used to know a 4-year-old that was mature for his age, but he wasn't settled, was he? Being settled is knowing every single little thing about yourself, and you can tell me you're MATUREMATUREMATURE till you're blue in the face, but you don't know what it's like to support yourself, fall in love, live without your parents, get a job. Do you? You have no idea how you'd act. So how could you be settled? Highly unlikely, methinks.
2. Not everything in your life is OMG SPIRITUAL.
Some things just happen. And they're mundane and ordinary. The fact that you tripped isn't a message from the gods to be careful because you might metaphorically "trip up" and make a mistake soon, you're just really clumsy. So wolves are your favourite animal. You must be a wolf therian with a settled wolf daemon and wolf totems and wolf guardians and wolf gods watching over you. No. You... just like wolves.
3. Being unsettled is hardcore.
This needs no explanation.
4. You. Don't. Know. Everything.
We've been here longer than you, working stuff out through trial and error. Don't run in and try and knock it all down with your two days of experience and single viewpoint. It's just not even funny.
5. Black is so not your colour.
SRSLY. Find a new colour. Black doesn't mean mystery and darkness and misery. To me it's a shade that's very solid and sure of itself and almost comforting. It's definite and complete. *cough* Unlike some people I know.
- Mood:
annoyed - Music:Bang Bang You're Dead - Dirty Pretty Things
- Mood:
disappointed - Music:Hand Me Down - Matchbox Twenty
Right, for starters, I'll tell you about my dream! :3 The only thing I remember about it is looking around to see a big picture of a gryphon in the sky. It was perfectly detailed and I could see it really clearly.
DreamMoods.com says: To see a griffon in your dream, symbolizes the positive aspects of change. You possess the physical power and stability of the lion and the vision, spirit and alertness of the eagle. It also represents intellect, physical strength, and the sun.
And I guess I'll talk about my teenage angst under a cut? xP
( Slightly emo :P )
- Mood:
confused - Music:This Letter - James Morrison
Right now it's pretty grey outside, but there's sunlight shining through the gaps in the clouds. (: I think it'll be a good day.
Right, here's everything I did since last Saturday.
Got my hair cut! Lois and my mum came with me to watch and I could see them sitting behind me - one minute looking horrified and the next looking awe-struck. Then me and Lois went to see Son Of Rambow (and were both nearly crying by the end of it xD!). Then Nikki came round and we had a sleepover (with facepaints!). Here's some pictures, mostly to show off my new hair:
Then on Sunday I went out to lunch with my parents, grampa and a friend of ours... with my new hair! That's about it for the weekend.
On Monday and Tuesday I did what I am today - nothing! =D!
I did a lot yesterday. Firstly my mum and me went to the tip. Before the inevitable throwing-stuff-into-huge-containers, we saw a guy who looked exactly like me. And afterwards, we went to the little shop and picked up four things for £1, including Full Metal Jacket on video and a really pretty hair clip. Then I went to my SYA volunteering induction. I think the things that sounded most interesting to me were the allotments (where they grow fruit and vegetables to sell and get money for charities etc) and the woman that occasionally asks for help making public information films. =D I really can't wait to start doing stuff - they're doing refreshments for a meeting with carers but I'll be in Italy.
Then I went to the gym and my foot was very itchy, AND THEN my parents went back to the tip. At the moment we're clearing out the garage so we can put games and stuff in there, but we keep buying things at the tip (four bar stools and these two beautiful art deco pictures) to fill it back up with! ):
I think that's about it...
Oh, I've started wearing makeup now! xD Just when I go out and stuff. It's fun to put it on. x3
Also, Inner Glow by Blue October is the most inspirational song on my playlist.
- Mood:
excited - Music:Inner Glow - Blue October
1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current car)
Slinky (or Slinky Toyota or Slinky Sportif! xD)
2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fave ice cream flavor, favorite cookie)
Cookie ChocChip
3. YOUR “FLY Guy/Girl” NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name)
L-McC
4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Orange Bear
5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Josephine Belfast
6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Mccla
7. SUPERHERO NAME: (”The” + 2nd favorite color, favorite drink)
The Green Orange Juice
8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers)
Fred Brian
9. STRIPPER NAME: ( the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy)
Fiorucci Polo
10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother’s & father’s middle names)
Amanda Patrick
11. TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (Your 5th grade teacher’s last name, a major city that starts with the same letter)
Holness Halifax
12. SPY NAME/BOND GIRL: (your favorite season/holiday, flower)
Summer Daisy
13. CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you’re wearing right now + “ie” or “y”)
Apple Shirtie
14. HIPPY NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree)
Toast Yew
15. YOUR ROCKSTAR TOUR NAME: (”The” + Your fave hobby/craft, fave weather element + “Tour”)
The Film Sun Tour.
- Mood:
thirsty - Music:She Had The World - Panic At The Disco
My breakfast is always happy to see me. <3
- Mood:
rejuvenated - Music:Koka Kola - The Clash
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Strike it out when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie.
5. NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search functions.
1. "Really, Charles, people will think-"
"-what I tell them to think."
2. "You don't remember your name?"
"No, but for some reason I remember yours."
3. "I bet a nickel."
"Dime's the limit, Martini."
"I bet a dime."
"This is not a dime, Martini. This is a dime."
4. "What kind of place is this? It's beautiful: Pigeons fly, women fall from the sky! I'm moving here!"
5. "Maybe he loves you?"
"Me?"
"Why not? He is like dogs. A dog looks at you, wants to talk, and only barks."
"I was..."
"Look again."
The Matrix --
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dev_winger8. "You shoot me in a dream, you better wake up and apologise."
"That's strange, sir. I don't have any recollection of that at all."
The Shining --
dev_winger10. "Hey... Will ya look at that? It's right through me. Guys, look. It's cut a hole right through me."
" There's something wrapped around it. Some kind of note."
"Give it to me."
"Guys, this is starting to really hurt. Just look at it. It's poked a hole right through me. Guys?"
"McCarthy, you fool."
"Guys, don't you think maybe somebody oughta call a doctor for me or something? This isn't the kind of thing you just ignore, guys."
"Out back. Everyone. Bring the women."
"Guys?"
"Can you see a letter, Dwayne?"
"It's an A. See? Right there?"
"It’s bright green... Oh man."
dev_winger12. "To see with eyes unclouded by hate."
"Me? I've had so many names. Old names that only the wind and the trees can pronounce. I am the mountain, the forest and the earth. I am... I am a faun. Your most humble servant, Your Highness."
dev_winger14. "So we bring him in wi' us to show him a bloody good time and you've just friggin back handed him roun' head. I'M DISAPPOINTED MATE!"
15. "Put. The Bunny. Back. In The Box."
- Mood:
sore - Music:Eclipse - Robyn
People are so caught up in being unique and brilliant that they never actually become somebody. The most fantastically unique and interesting peope I know are the ones who made things theirs instead of making things different. The most boring people are rip offs of each other who are "totally crazy and unique".
Just because nobody else is wearing a bucket on their head doesn't mean you should. Wearing a dress made of carpet will never be a good idea, no matter how zany and unique it makes you. I'm sick of people saying "wow, that's SO UNIQUE!". Um, sure, but it's the ugliest damn outfit I've ever seen.
So there you go. (: Isn't that interesting?
- Mood:
loved - Music:Wonderwall - Oasis
Today I went to Beaulieu (it's pronounced "byoo-lee", wtf?!) in the New Forest with some people from school. We went to a sort of outdoor activity place with portaloos.
Anyway, I feel pretty great because not only did I CLIMB A WALL and get dead confident CLIMBING HIGH UP STUFF (haha I'm such a wimp), I did the Leap Of Faith (top right picture, you basically climb up to a high platform and jump off - wearing a harness and stuff, of course)! The worst bit was definately climbing the rungs in the tree to get up there and then actually getting on the platform. I'm capable of so much more than I thought I was. I'm amazed that I did most of that stuff.
...
Awesome. (:
- Location:duh
- Mood:
accomplished - Music:Kill The Director - The Wombats
Unless it's on LJ:
Everyone has things they journal about.
Everyone has things they don't journal about.
Challenge me out of my comfort zone by telling me something I don't journal about, but you'd like to hear about, and I'll write a post about it. Ask for anything: last movie watched, last book read, political leanings, favorite type of underwear, etc.
Repost in your own journal so that we can all learn more about each other!
- Location:bedrum
- Mood:
curious - Music:I Like The Way You Move - Bodyrockers
I'm on the outside looking in, again. When did I stop being worthy? I don't need them, I just need somebody. Somebody to pick me up and make me feel special. Is that how I think of people now, just moral support?
I comfort, give advice, let myself be exploited, wear make-up for these people... but I'll never be top of the heroes list, and I'll never be in the photos, and I'll never catch their attention first time. I'll never be the one that made that party one to remember, I'll never be the one people want to be seen with, I'll never have the inside jokes. I'm not cute and pretty and sweet. I wish I could stoop that low, be like them, bitchy and giggly and mindless. I can't do that, I made a decision to be different somewhere along the line and I guess that was a mistake. How come I'm on the outside looking in?
Maybe it was the time I wanted to be nice, so I let her join in and be my friend. My only friend. The friend that turned me against myself and started all this insecurity in the first place, made me hate myself until I could get out, find those beautiful people who were strong enough to drag me out of it all. And then for one glorious Summer, before they changed and vanished completely, I had two amazing friends. The best friends ever. And now, as much of an asshole he is, I can't help missing the person he used to be.
Mornings are bad times to be so miserable and introspective. v.v
- Location:bedroom
- Mood:
envious - Music:Is It Any Wonder? - Keane
- Location:home
- Mood:
amused - Music:With Or Without You - Keane
Procrastinate is such a rude sounding word. "HEY BABE LET'S PROCRASTINATE BEHIND THOSE TRESS ;D" "O:"
Anyway, today's been awesome. School was SUCH a laugh. Krista is Brett. Jr (me and Brett's baby x3) and Charlie is The Rock (as in, SUCK THE ROCK).
Then after school I managed to make mum take me Christmas shopping and lots of people will be getting incense this year. xD; Including me.
I HAVE FOUND AN AWESOME SHOP. It's called Bells, Smells and Doo-dahs, and my mum was like "hey let's go in there" and I assumed it would be girly bath salts etc. (the sign was pink and had a woman on it >> I only noticed the woman had a wand when I walked out of the shop xD)! When I walked in I realised all the awesome stuff they had. It was mainly Pagan/Buddhist, with books and jewelry and stuff, but they had some Christmas stuff and all sorts, along with some really nice CDs. I only bought 5 sticks of incense (one of which was orange/yellow and is being burnt at the moment - it's amazing how many places are selling incense at the moment! =D ah, I love incense xD) and a pretty unicorn card for my mum's friend's daughter for Christmas (she's REALLY nice and we get along like a house on fire, we're so similar - note to self, mention daemons to her! O=), but I STRONGLY hinted to mum that I wanted the little pentagram ring and I'll remember to go there next time I'm in town. We got chestnuts (roasted on an open fire) and various Christmas presents, LIKE LOU'S. OMG.
Anyway, I got home and HEY ANGEL DELIGHT! =D So I've just been chilling, and then I'll type up my German and go wrap some presents.
Ciao x
PS. I have multi-coloured lights up and they look very festive and awesome.
- Location:home
- Mood:
peaceful - Music:A Winter's Tale - David Essex
And I'm DEFINITELY not going to jump off a trampet and into a forwards roll.
Seriously, when would I ever need to do a freaking dive roll out of a burning building or something? Would I have the rationality to even CONSIDER doing it? NO, I'd FREAKING run like heck until I was no longer on fire, wouldn't I? I wouldn't go "hm, this calls for a forwards roll. I know, I'll dive into it. Okay, land on my shoulders, hold your arms out for a good finish...". I wouldn't do that because I'd be burning to death by the time I actually moved. OKAY? Okay.
So the only reason I'm doing your stupid little roll is because you're telling me to. Well forget you.
I couldn't stop crying. I could barely even breathe I was so panicky. I personally don't think I could have coped with the rest of that lesson, and you did actually say "I'll be with you in a minute", so excuse me for not joining your little party.
And to all of you idiots that decide on the National Curriculum... ARGHSGDFGERHIP! I don't CARE if I get a level 7 in PE. I don't even care if I get level 3. I know that I'm not that unhealthy and no amount of springboards will change that.
This sucks. I can't even talk about it without bursting into tears, which - let's be honest - is pathetic. I'm pretty sure I'm seriously worrying my mum.
The worst part is that I have to do this every Thursday. And apparently even for an extra term if I CAN'T DO A STUPID FREAKING FORWARDS ROLL. Crap. Oh and sorry but if I'm stood gasping for breath/sobbing, asking me REPEATEDLY what is wrong is gonna be ANNOYING to say the least. FOR GOODNESS SAKE, I couldn't SPEAK.
- Mood:
embarrassed - Music:Hope There's Someone - Antony and the Johnsons
