'Fathom'

am I in a scene from a midsummer night's dream?

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 07:10:39 GMT

Here's my Wordle!

It's all my LiveJournal posts. Look for "thinking hey" in green on the left. It sort of reads "thinking hey, she's positive". :D I love this thing. I screwed up the xD but oh well.

And it occurred to me that not once have I mentioned Corey Feldman on my LiveJournal! xD So here it is:

Corey Feldman has a dog called Jake. Haha Jake. Haha.
Apparantly Krista broke up with Jake (boy not dog) because she thought I was jealous. *eyeroll*
HE IS PLAYING MIND GAMES. Nobody else can see it but I'm so sure it's true. That wily git.

Oh, I've made friends with Beth'n'that now. It's turned out that all this "she hates me and thinks I'm evil and weird pshhhh" thing came from Blanka, who was the one who told me all this in the first place.

DAMN I gotta get dressed. (: Byeee.

Oh! By the way. I LOVE cappuccino.

but you didn't hear a single word I said

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 20:11:25 GMT

A warning in advance for excessive use of the shift button. (:
- - -
Okay, last week he was pretty much wrestling with me and being really OMG I LOVE YOU. Now he's fawning over my friend in a very obvious way right in front of me.

Either he's even more stupid and insecure than I thought he was or he's trying to play mind games.
Wtf.
He can't even spell her name! D<

AND I DON'T EVEN LIKE HIM
BUT WHAT HAVE THEY GOT THAT I HAVEN'T?!
SHE ISN'T EVEN PRETTY FFS.

ARGH I HATE BEING A TEENAGER

"she might go out with me 'cause she's desperate"
"no D: that's not what I meant"
HAHA. Yes it is. -.- She is.

*sigh* Sometimes I just hate everyone. *hugs moodtheme*

downtown the young ones are growing

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 20:54:30 GMT

HAPPY FRIDAY THIRTEENTH!

Hee, I just saw The Incredible Hulk. It was alright. Visually stunning, everything else was a bit meh. Except Tim Roth. xD He was amazing. But his character (EMIL BLONSKY. BEST NAME EVER xD) shot a dog with a tranquiliser and made me gasp really loudly and annoy everyone around us. >>

**SPOILERS FOR LORD OF THE FLIES AND THE NEW HULK FIIIILM! ((BUT SERIOUSLY. LORD OF THE FLIES))**
Two of my favourite characters died today (*points to suitable icon*). One in Lord Of The Flies (Simon, poor Simon, he had the best scene in the entire book and was the most rational and nicest out of all of them! D=) and the other in The Incredible Hulk (but that's what I get for falling in love with evil bastards xD Then again, The Abomination was pretty kickass, and didn't really deserve to be somehow killed by the obviously weaker Hulk standing on his ribs).
**SPOILERS OVER, NOW FOR SOMETHING ENTIRELY DIFFERENT, BLAH BLAH BLAHHH...**

I was thinking about when I go to college, and getting people to call me something different. I just don't really like the name Laura that much; I don't really associate with it. I want a bit of an odd name. Originally I was thinking of just introducing myself as Lur, but I was thinking of doing the same sort of thing my mum did and adopting my middle name. It's Josephine (like Napoleon Bonaparte's wife!), after my granny - I always loved her and the name, and I was thinking of shortening it to Jo. It's a bit gender ambigious, which I quite like.

On the other hand, I wanted something with lot of meaning in it. Obviously Jose/Jo has a lot of personal meaning to me, but I don't really feel like it's "it" somehow. Maybe I'm totally overthinking this whole thing, but it would be like a fun way to reinvent myself and define myself. I'm mad on names and have to make sure I find the perfect names for characters and such. When people say "Laura" to me, I'm usually responding to a noise, not a name. ...

Hm. Any thoughts on the matter? (:

faces come out of the rain

Mon, 26 May 2008 07:01:05 GMT

Info
[x] I am shorter than 5'4. (5'0 ftw!)
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. (go for a holiday on the continent, all the sexy waiters tell you how great you are xD)
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[ ] I have a job
[ ] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation. (all the time!)
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry. (no films make me cry *is strong and manly*)
[x] I've peed from laughing. (;.; *embaressed*)
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox. (My parents called me spotty. >>)
[ ] I've had measles

Travelling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa. (I would LOVE to go to Africa!)

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city. (I suck and constantly get lost everywhere)
[ ] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas. (Yeah, last time I went to Belfast xD)
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator. (*gigglesnort* Sheena's a bad influence)
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. (>> *coughKylecough*)
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle. (I agree with Ryn, it really sucked)
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue. (NO SNOW, K? ARGH.)
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken. (>> << >> Sort of. On the road. I seriously am a chicken though. xD)
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. (not on stage, only movie)
[ ] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher. (very embarassing.)
[x] I am a cuddler. (Cuddles ftw!)
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain. (EMOS GET KISSED IN THE RAIN. I get kissed in VOLCANOES)
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've lost the game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol (yes, once accidently from a fermenting fruit salad)
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem (never tried o.o)
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it. (>> c'mon. my bed's comfy)
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying. (I have too many things to do first!)
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide. (... I get bored)
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books. (sort of? they're fun)
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news. (only sometimes)
[x] I don't kill bugs. (D: aww!)
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme. (I like rhymes...)
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic. (EW EW EW EW)
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun (>> uhh...)
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate (I'm not chocoracist, I love ALLLL chocolate x3)
[ ] I bite my nails. (difficult with braces)
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] All of those are answered honestly

I watched Bonnie and Clyde last night, btw. (:

come into my heart

Sat, 24 May 2008 10:14:36 GMT

Just realised this.
Orange is not only the colour I've painted my room, but also my favourite colour, fruit juice, colour of Smartie and Reservoir Dog.
I'm suspicious.

Also, I'm totally obsessed with the Stand By Me Soundtrack right now. x3

I think I'll lie a bit

Mon, 19 May 2008 18:38:40 GMT

Weird. I just feel... weird. It's nice. Relaxed, I guess. Chilled out.

We have a new room - we converted the garage. It's cool in there when it's too hot outside, and we have a shelf to act as a bar and a dartboard and.. I like it there. I normally like being too hot, but it's alright in there, being a bit chilly. It's something new; a sort of privacy that feels new and welcoming. It feels cut off from the rest of the house. You can't hear the doorbell or the phone once the door's shut, and people forget you're there. The PS2's been moved out there, so I'll sometimes go and play Okami, but it's just something to do. I like it in there.

More and more I'm realising what a private person I am. I like having a surface-self, with a few thoughts that are special and reserved and locked up for only my private viewing. I love hating myself, then kissing it better again. I love replacing all the characters in books with the actor that would fit them just perfect (Lord Of The Flies is like The Goonies meets Harry Potter). I love my own silences, usually followed by a mad burst of hyperactivity. I love being the detatched entertainer. I love the bizarre mix of superiority and inferiority I immerse myself in. I love my imagination, the way I talk to myself, and the way I can love myself when nobody else can quite love me enough. It's a strange and highly flawed and existance, buuut... heck, I love it.

I also just thought of loads of stuff to tell you. First of all, I never have to do gymnastics. Ever. Again. FRICKING AMAZING! This is pretty old news, but it still makes me grin like crazy. Also, I got a letter the other day from SYA about volunteering - I'll hopefully be helping raise awareness about it soon. It seems a bit weird that my first mission is that of recruiting, but whatever.

I think I might start writing again.

always so easily led

Sat, 10 May 2008 19:44:42 GMT

Okay. I NEED to rant. *puts her ANGRY HAT on* By the way, only point 2 will make sense unless you know what a daemon is... xD; Sorry.

1. Mature =/= Settled.
I AM MATURE. OKAY? MATURE MATURE MATURE! *sticks tongue out* I know I'm mature for my age, I've always been more mature than my peers, and it's given me a bit of a superiority complex if I'm honest, but it DOESN'T MEAN I AM SETTLED. Because you're only mature for your age. I'm sure a 40-year-old would consider me mature for my age, but I'm not quite on the same level of maturity as somebody that age. I used to know a 4-year-old that was mature for his age, but he wasn't settled, was he? Being settled is knowing every single little thing about yourself, and you can tell me you're MATUREMATUREMATURE till you're blue in the face, but you don't know what it's like to support yourself, fall in love, live without your parents, get a job. Do you? You have no idea how you'd act. So how could you be settled? Highly unlikely, methinks.

2. Not everything in your life is OMG SPIRITUAL.
Some things just happen. And they're mundane and ordinary. The fact that you tripped isn't a message from the gods to be careful because you might metaphorically "trip up" and make a mistake soon, you're just really clumsy. So wolves are your favourite animal. You must be a wolf therian with a settled wolf daemon and wolf totems and wolf guardians and wolf gods watching over you. No. You... just like wolves.

3. Being unsettled is hardcore.
This needs no explanation.

4. You. Don't. Know. Everything.
We've been here longer than you, working stuff out through trial and error. Don't run in and try and knock it all down with your two days of experience and single viewpoint. It's just not even funny.

5. Black is so not your colour.
SRSLY. Find a new colour. Black doesn't mean mystery and darkness and misery. To me it's a shade that's very solid and sure of itself and almost comforting. It's definite and complete. *cough* Unlike some people I know.

the straight to your heart times

Sun, 27 Apr 2008 20:59:33 GMT

Two posts in one day. How I spoil you. ;D!

Best TV Shows According To Empire Magazine

1. Bold the shows you watch
2. Italic the shows you've seen at least one episode of.
3. Post your answers.

50. Quantum Leap
49. Prison Break
48. Veronica Mars
47. Star Trek: Deep Space Nine
46. Sex & The City

45. Farscape
44. Cracker
43. Star Trek
42. Only Fools and Horses
41. Band of Brothers

40. Life on Mars
39. Monty Python's Flying Circus
38. Curb Your Enthusiasm
37. Star Trek: The Next Generation
36. Father Ted

35. Alias
34. Frasier
33. CSI: Las Vegas
32. Babylon 5
31. Deadwood

30. Dexter
29. ER
28. Fawlty Towers
27. Six Feet Under
26. Red Dwarf

25. Futurama
24. Twin Peaks
23. The Office UK
22. The Shield
21. Angel

20. Blackadder
19. Scrubs
18. Arrested Development
17. South Park
16. Doctor Who (new version)

15. Heroes
14. Firefly
13. Batlestar Galactica (new version)
12. Family Guy
11. Seinfeld

10. Spaced
09. The X-Files
08. The Wire
07. Friends
06. 24

05. Lost
04. The West Wing
03. The Sopranos
02. Buffy the Vampire Slayer
01. The Simpsons

20% are programs I watch regularly
22% are programs I've seen at least one episode of.
That's 42% altogether.

I love Empire, but they like too many American programs that I'm unable to watch. xD

deep down I know that's the way it has to be so

Sun, 27 Apr 2008 09:28:21 GMT

Right, for starters, I'll tell you about my dream! :3 The only thing I remember about it is looking around to see a big picture of a gryphon in the sky. It was perfectly detailed and I could see it really clearly.

DreamMoods.com says: To see a griffon in your dream, symbolizes the positive aspects of change. You possess the physical power and stability of the lion and the vision, spirit and alertness of the eagle. It also represents intellect, physical strength, and the sun.

And I guess I'll talk about my teenage angst under a cut? xP

Please refer to icon. (:

On Friday I went to Liam's after school, which was awesome. He's one of the few people I could just sit and talk to for hours and hours. He's really sweet and stuff, it was a fun day. However, we decided to play around on Avatar High. It was really fun, we made me, him, Jack, Krista, Sam, Bun, Cary and Kyle (bear in mind that he was controlling who we made). We were like LOL let's have a prom! Then we ran around pairing them up with the people who just happened to be closest: Liam and Bun, Jack and Cary, Krista and Sam... And guess who's left. But the weird thing is, Liam was like "hee you have you to go out with Kyle! ^^". Is this just because all my friends seem to think we're good together, or am I actually missed and Kyle's said something to Liam, or am I totally thinking about this too much?

I can't stop thinking how much I miss him. :/ I just want to talk to him again. I don't care what it's about, I'd spend two minutes laughing about Sam inadvertantly admitting to having piles (which was awesome - he was like "budgeting is where you have one pile for like an X-Box game, one pile for a guitar..." and I was like "hey Sam, do you have piles?" and he was like "o_o Yeah, sometimes" and we were like "LOL SAM HAS PILES". We're really mature).

Jake D spent like 2 days telling me how much he loved me and being a bit adorable, but in one week all he's done is comment on how my hair's nearly shorter than his now. To be honest, I'm not all that bothered about him. He's quite cute, but he's obviously not that bothered and.. I dunno, he's a bit dull to be honest. There's nothing about him that makes me go "OMG HE'S SO GREAT!", he's just sort of alright. The only reason I expressed any interest at all is because everyone was telling me how I was so frigid and needing a boyfriend (which is quite stupid, admittedly). Also, whenever I talk to him, I just can't stop thinking about how he's just like Kyle. Longish brown hair, not exactly chubby but not skinny, short-ish, plays drums, good sense of humor, likes rock music... Argh.

Anyway, Kyle's not talked to me since I hit him in the face for being such a git to Liam (violent? me? noway!). I don't know how he is about Beth now, but according to Liam, she doesn't even like him. On the way to History, last thing on Friday, he had his arm around Krista and was holding the door open for her and... I was like hey, that used to be me. I actually sit right in front of him in History. I couldn't even bring myself to tell him my incredibly witty comment about the bombed bus being "just like Speed!". 'I just can't stop thinking about him' is cliched, maybe, but it's true. I tried just hating him, and getting over it that way - losing friends is hard enough - but I just can't. As much as he's changed, I miss him and I just want... I dunno. I just want everything to be worked out so I'm not constantly over-analysing things, like that stupid "positive change" dream. Everything keeps telling me "positive change" but it doesn't seem all that positive - finding out how bitchy everyone really is, losing people. Did he ever like me at all? Apparantly Connor was laughing about it, "can you believe you went out with her?!" Haha. True.

*sigh* I guess I'll try talking to him. Maybe. Maybe I'll just give up and look forward to getting out of secondary school and away from these people.

;.; People suck. Hopefully I'll be going to the St. Francis animal shelter today to offer my volunteering skills (of which there are few, but you gotta start somewhere, right?).

Oh, and I watched True Romance last night - written by Quentin Tarantino. I got the screenplay from Help The Aged. It seriously is just his autobiography merged with overdramatic shootouts and drug deals. xD

And my throat is killing me. *twitch*

only want a beat we can drum to

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 08:04:56 GMT

Right now it's pretty grey outside, but there's sunlight shining through the gaps in the clouds. (: I think it'll be a good day.

Right, here's everything I did since last Saturday.

Got my hair cut! Lois and my mum came with me to watch and I could see them sitting behind me - one minute looking horrified and the next looking awe-struck. Then me and Lois went to see Son Of Rambow (and were both nearly crying by the end of it xD!). Then Nikki came round and we had a sleepover (with facepaints!). Here's some pictures, mostly to show off my new hair:

And last but not least, the most beautiful of all:

Then on Sunday I went out to lunch with my parents, grampa and a friend of ours... with my new hair! That's about it for the weekend.

On Monday and Tuesday I did what I am today - nothing! =D!

I did a lot yesterday. Firstly my mum and me went to the tip. Before the inevitable throwing-stuff-into-huge-containers, we saw a guy who looked exactly like me. And afterwards, we went to the little shop and picked up four things for £1, including Full Metal Jacket on video and a really pretty hair clip. Then I went to my SYA volunteering induction. I think the things that sounded most interesting to me were the allotments (where they grow fruit and vegetables to sell and get money for charities etc) and the woman that occasionally asks for help making public information films. =D I really can't wait to start doing stuff - they're doing refreshments for a meeting with carers but I'll be in Italy.

Then I went to the gym and my foot was very itchy, AND THEN my parents went back to the tip. At the moment we're clearing out the garage so we can put games and stuff in there, but we keep buying things at the tip (four bar stools and these two beautiful art deco pictures) to fill it back up with! ):

I think that's about it...
Oh, I've started wearing makeup now! xD Just when I go out and stuff. It's fun to put it on. x3

Also, Inner Glow by Blue October is the most inspirational song on my playlist.

Stolen from Steve/Winger >3

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 19:49:24 GMT

The Name Game
1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current car)
Slinky (or Slinky Toyota or Slinky Sportif! xD)

2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fave ice cream flavor, favorite cookie)
Cookie ChocChip

3. YOUR “FLY Guy/Girl” NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name)
L-McC

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Orange Bear

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Josephine Belfast

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Mccla

7. SUPERHERO NAME: (”The” + 2nd favorite color, favorite drink)
The Green Orange Juice

8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers)
Fred Brian

9. STRIPPER NAME: ( the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy)
Fiorucci Polo

10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother’s & father’s middle names)
Amanda Patrick

11. TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (Your 5th grade teacher’s last name, a major city that starts with the same letter)
Holness Halifax

12. SPY NAME/BOND GIRL: (your favorite season/holiday, flower)
Summer Daisy

13. CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you’re wearing right now + “ie” or “y”)
Apple Shirtie

14. HIPPY NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree)
Toast Yew

15. YOUR ROCKSTAR TOUR NAME: (”The” + Your fave hobby/craft, fave weather element + “Tour”)
The Film Sun Tour.

you don't need a laundrette, you can take it to the vet

Wed, 19 Mar 2008 20:03:11 GMT

I like to have toast in the morning. I draw a smiley face with my marmite.

My breakfast is always happy to see me. <3

an eclipse in your eye where I used to shine

Tue, 18 Mar 2008 20:59:20 GMT

1. Pick 15 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Strike it out when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie.
5. NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search functions.

1. "Really, Charles, people will think-"
"-what I tell them to think."

2. "You don't remember your name?"
"No, but for some reason I remember yours."

3. "I bet a nickel."
"Dime's the limit, Martini."
"I bet a dime."
"This is not a dime, Martini. This is a dime."

4. "What kind of place is this? It's beautiful: Pigeons fly, women fall from the sky! I'm moving here!"

5. "Maybe he loves you?"
"Me?"
"Why not? He is like dogs. A dog looks at you, wants to talk, and only barks."

6. "Were you listening to me, Neo? Or were you looking at the woman in the red dress?"
"I was..."
"Look again."
The Matrix -- dev_winger

~~7. "Aristotle was not Belgian, the principle of Buddhism is not "every man for himself", and the London Underground is not a political movement. Those are all mistakes, Otto. I looked them up."~~
A Fish Called Wanda -- dev_winger

8. "You shoot me in a dream, you better wake up and apologise."

9."Mr. Grady. You were the caretaker here. I recognize ya. I saw your picture in the newspapers. You, uh, chopped your wife and daughters up into little bits. And then you blew your brains out."
"That's strange, sir. I don't have any recollection of that at all."
The Shining -- dev_winger

10. "Hey... Will ya look at that? It's right through me. Guys, look. It's cut a hole right through me."
" There's something wrapped around it. Some kind of note."
"Give it to me."
"Guys, this is starting to really hurt. Just look at it. It's poked a hole right through me. Guys?"
"McCarthy, you fool."
"Guys, don't you think maybe somebody oughta call a doctor for me or something? This isn't the kind of thing you just ignore, guys."
"Out back. Everyone. Bring the women."
"Guys?"

11. "No in the circle. The letter... in the circle?"
"Can you see a letter, Dwayne?"
"It's an A. See? Right there?"
"It’s bright green... Oh man."
Little Miss Sunshine -- dev_winger

12. "To see with eyes unclouded by hate."

13. "My name is Ofelia. Who are you?"
"Me? I've had so many names. Old names that only the wind and the trees can pronounce. I am the mountain, the forest and the earth. I am... I am a faun. Your most humble servant, Your Highness."
Pan's Labyrinth -- dev_winger

14. "So we bring him in wi' us to show him a bloody good time and you've just friggin back handed him roun' head. I'M DISAPPOINTED MATE!"

15. "Put. The Bunny. Back. In The Box."

gonna be the one that saves me

Tue, 18 Mar 2008 19:41:55 GMT

My deepest darkest hatred is one that I'm not sure how to express simply, but if I had to try, it would be: everyone is always trying to be different.

People are so caught up in being unique and brilliant that they never actually become somebody. The most fantastically unique and interesting peope I know are the ones who made things theirs instead of making things different. The most boring people are rip offs of each other who are "totally crazy and unique".

Just because nobody else is wearing a bucket on their head doesn't mean you should. Wearing a dress made of carpet will never be a good idea, no matter how zany and unique it makes you. I'm sick of people saying "wow, that's SO UNIQUE!". Um, sure, but it's the ugliest damn outfit I've ever seen.

So there you go. (: Isn't that interesting?

I don't care about the soaps

Mon, 17 Mar 2008 18:59:54 GMT

Today I went to Beaulieu (it's pronounced "byoo-lee", wtf?!) in the New Forest with some people from school. We went to a sort of outdoor activity place with portaloos.

Anyway, I feel pretty great because not only did I CLIMB A WALL and get dead confident CLIMBING HIGH UP STUFF (haha I'm such a wimp), I did the Leap Of Faith (top right picture, you basically climb up to a high platform and jump off - wearing a harness and stuff, of course)! The worst bit was definately climbing the rungs in the tree to get up there and then actually getting on the platform. I'm capable of so much more than I thought I was. I'm amazed that I did most of that stuff.
...
Awesome. (:

Stealing Is Wrong

Mon, 17 Mar 2008 18:33:18 GMT

Unless it's on LJ:

Everyone has things they journal about.

Everyone has things they don't journal about.

Challenge me out of my comfort zone by telling me something I don't journal about, but you'd like to hear about, and I'll write a post about it. Ask for anything: last movie watched, last book read, political leanings, favorite type of underwear, etc.

Repost in your own journal so that we can all learn more about each other!

and now I look for fool for thinking you were wrong

Fri, 14 Mar 2008 08:11:21 GMT

I'm on the outside looking in, again. When did I stop being worthy? I don't need them, I just need somebody. Somebody to pick me up and make me feel special. Is that how I think of people now, just moral support?

I comfort, give advice, let myself be exploited, wear make-up for these people... but I'll never be top of the heroes list, and I'll never be in the photos, and I'll never catch their attention first time. I'll never be the one that made that party one to remember, I'll never be the one people want to be seen with, I'll never have the inside jokes. I'm not cute and pretty and sweet. I wish I could stoop that low, be like them, bitchy and giggly and mindless. I can't do that, I made a decision to be different somewhere along the line and I guess that was a mistake. How come I'm on the outside looking in?

Maybe it was the time I wanted to be nice, so I let her join in and be my friend. My only friend. The friend that turned me against myself and started all this insecurity in the first place, made me hate myself until I could get out, find those beautiful people who were strong enough to drag me out of it all. And then for one glorious Summer, before they changed and vanished completely, I had two amazing friends. The best friends ever. And now, as much of an asshole he is, I can't help missing the person he used to be.

Mornings are bad times to be so miserable and introspective. v.v

Stolen from Ryn

Sat, 01 Mar 2008 17:07:24 GMT

How Much of your Teenage Life Have You messed up?

[x] Gotten detention.
[ ] Gotten your phone taken away in class.
[ ] Gotten suspended.
[ ] Gotten caught chewing gum.
[ ] Gotten caught cheating on a test

Total: 1

[x] Arrived late to class more than 5 times.
[x] Didnt do homework over 5 times.
[x] Turned at least 3 projects in late
[x] Missed school cause you felt like it.
[ ] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class.

Total so far: 5

[x] Got your mom/dad etc. to get you out of school.
[x] Texted people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[x] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher.

Total so far: 10

[ ] Pulled down the fire alarm
[x] Went on myspace, facebook, xanga, etc. on the computer at school.
[x] Took pictures during school hours.
[x] Called someone during school hours
[x] Listened to an iPod, cd, etc. during class. (but the teachers let us sometimes)

Total so far: 14

[x] Threw something at the teacher.
[ ] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[ ] Broke the dress code
[ ] Failed a class.
[x] Ate food during class.

Total so far: 16

[x] Gotten a call from school.
[ ] couldnt go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.
[ ]Didnt take your stuff to school.
[x] Gotten a detention and didn't go.
[x] Stuck up your middle finger at a teacher when they were not looking.
[x] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear

Total so far: 20

[ ] Faked your parents signature
[ ] Slept in class.
[ ] Cursed at a teacher to their face
[x] Copied homework

Total: 21
Multiply by 3: 63%
=)

And I feel slightly proud

Mon, 03 Dec 2007 21:22:51 GMT

I should really be typing up my German coursework but I'm a born and bred procrastinator so procrastinate I must. (;

Procrastinate is such a rude sounding word. "HEY BABE LET'S PROCRASTINATE BEHIND THOSE TRESS ;D" "O:"

Anyway, today's been awesome. School was SUCH a laugh. Krista is Brett. Jr (me and Brett's baby x3) and Charlie is The Rock (as in, SUCK THE ROCK).

Then after school I managed to make mum take me Christmas shopping and lots of people will be getting incense this year. xD; Including me.

I HAVE FOUND AN AWESOME SHOP. It's called Bells, Smells and Doo-dahs, and my mum was like "hey let's go in there" and I assumed it would be girly bath salts etc. (the sign was pink and had a woman on it >> I only noticed the woman had a wand when I walked out of the shop xD)! When I walked in I realised all the awesome stuff they had. It was mainly Pagan/Buddhist, with books and jewelry and stuff, but they had some Christmas stuff and all sorts, along with some really nice CDs. I only bought 5 sticks of incense (one of which was orange/yellow and is being burnt at the moment - it's amazing how many places are selling incense at the moment! =D ah, I love incense xD) and a pretty unicorn card for my mum's friend's daughter for Christmas (she's REALLY nice and we get along like a house on fire, we're so similar - note to self, mention daemons to her! O=), but I STRONGLY hinted to mum that I wanted the little pentagram ring and I'll remember to go there next time I'm in town. We got chestnuts (roasted on an open fire) and various Christmas presents, LIKE LOU'S. OMG.

Anyway, I got home and HEY ANGEL DELIGHT! =D So I've just been chilling, and then I'll type up my German and go wrap some presents.

Ciao x

PS. I have multi-coloured lights up and they look very festive and awesome.

hope there's someone who'll set my heart free

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 16:16:00 GMT

I'm never gonna the hang of stupid forwards rolls, and I don't even care, because they're so utterly pointless.

And I'm DEFINITELY not going to jump off a trampet and into a forwards roll.

Seriously, when would I ever need to do a freaking dive roll out of a burning building or something? Would I have the rationality to even CONSIDER doing it? NO, I'd FREAKING run like heck until I was no longer on fire, wouldn't I? I wouldn't go "hm, this calls for a forwards roll. I know, I'll dive into it. Okay, land on my shoulders, hold your arms out for a good finish...". I wouldn't do that because I'd be burning to death by the time I actually moved. OKAY? Okay.

So the only reason I'm doing your stupid little roll is because you're telling me to. Well forget you.

I couldn't stop crying. I could barely even breathe I was so panicky. I personally don't think I could have coped with the rest of that lesson, and you did actually say "I'll be with you in a minute", so excuse me for not joining your little party.

And to all of you idiots that decide on the National Curriculum... ARGHSGDFGERHIP! I don't CARE if I get a level 7 in PE. I don't even care if I get level 3. I know that I'm not that unhealthy and no amount of springboards will change that.

This sucks. I can't even talk about it without bursting into tears, which - let's be honest - is pathetic. I'm pretty sure I'm seriously worrying my mum.

The worst part is that I have to do this every Thursday. And apparently even for an extra term if I CAN'T DO A STUPID FREAKING FORWARDS ROLL. Crap. Oh and sorry but if I'm stood gasping for breath/sobbing, asking me REPEATEDLY what is wrong is gonna be ANNOYING to say the least. FOR GOODNESS SAKE, I couldn't SPEAK.

bullet through a flock of doves

Tue, 06 Nov 2007 11:28:29 GMT

I FOUND MY FREAKING HAT.
=DD
My day is MADE.

Although. 1:1 review soon. Bleck.

ALTHOUGH. KYLE, SAM AND LIAM ARE COMING ROUND AFTERWARDS TO MAKE. A SHORT FILM.

Buzzing mate.

take a long hard look at yourself

Sat, 03 Nov 2007 16:37:13 GMT

ARGH.

I have to go to a party in a minute and I really don't wanna go even though it's my best friends. And I'm in tears all because I've lost a stupid hat. Ugh. What an idiot.

...

It was a very nice hat though. ):

If we catch a criminal, then we catch a criminal.

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 12:34:40 GMT

Eeee last night me, Lois and two of her friends went to the Hoosiers. They were AMAZING. <3 The support bands inevitably sucked, but the Hoosiers ROCKED.

Probably why I'm just finding this funny now.

Rachel - poor girl. She doesn't have many friends at all and so she clings to any friend she gets, and is accused of being a lesbian. Hey, neither of us have friends any more, so we're hanging out. Why not? She's a nice person, I like talking to her. And according to someone, she's "stealing me". Okay FIRST of all, I'm not an object to be stolen. You don't own me. I can hang out with whoever I want, and I'm smart enough to know when somebody's trying to seperate me from my friends. Secondly, I'd RATHER hang out with her. I don't think every single girl in the world is a lesbian, and even if she is, so what? She's a nicer person than you. Also, if you arrange to go to somebody's house, it's polite to inform them that you can't make it. (:

My insides are copper

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 12:21:03 GMT

Fresh start time! I've deleted all my posts (along with my MySpace and Bebo) and I'm starting afresh.

I feel a bit like I'm blundering. People are slipping away from me and I'm powerless to stop them. I also seem to be getting on my online friends' nerves, although I'm not totally clear on why... I feel like a complete idiot, basically. I went from no friends to brilliant friends to half-interested friends and now it looks like I'm heading back to no friends.

...Why? Am I like.. a bad person or something? What have I done to be given friends, only to have then torn away again? I'm almost scared to talk to my friends now incase I say something wrong and insult, upset or annoy them, incase I get abandoned. So seriously, please tell me why everyone seems to hate me all of a sudden?

In fact it's probably the daily "EEEEEE Y'KNOW *insert film here*?!" Or the general me being an annoying bitch without noticing. Or my lack of tact. Or something else. Oh I have no idea.

I'm miserable now.

I'mma go play Pokemon before I turn into an emo. Ciao.